For those that don't know me I have to say that I have had a tough two years when it comes to movement. I started off with plantor fasciatis, the had burr sack issues in my toes, then I fractured the Cuboid Bone in the same foot. I tore the ligaments.....then two years ago I also quit smoking. Yay me, the weightgain not a yay. So I am starting my get back into shape campaign with lots of tennis. We got out twice so far this week. Tonight my thighs are cramping because we hit for about two hours.
At 40 I don't want to be in a gym with all the young ones. I would rather get out on the court and hit with my daughter or hit with some other players. Looks like I will be doing both about three times a week through the fall.
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Saturday, March 10, 2012
It's Time
I am very happy to come "out of retirement" to play for New Hope tonight. Just ran through the last of my sets, great deal of singing so I hope my allergy ridden voice is gonna be alright, but, even when I worry it generally is. Some rest before we go is in order for sure.
I'm expecting God to meet me there, on that stage with the friends I have made there and talk directly to my heart about my doubts, about my fears, about my suffering feeling totally inadequate to do what I do, which is entertain, yet knowing that I am called to do just that. So......hoping to post some videos tomorrow from tonight. Hoping that sharing my life will help someone with their walk because there are so many distractions, I can't begin to tell you how many times I've wondered what on earth I was doing because of this or that. Why do I think I am "good enough" to entertain a shoe? Well, I am not and once I remove myself from this situation I see just that. It's not about me at all. A very special thanks to my neighbor Pat, who is like Jana's adopted grandmom, who sat and listened to me sing for the last half hour.
Time to pack it all up and hit the turnpike with my amazing family.
I'm expecting God to meet me there, on that stage with the friends I have made there and talk directly to my heart about my doubts, about my fears, about my suffering feeling totally inadequate to do what I do, which is entertain, yet knowing that I am called to do just that. So......hoping to post some videos tomorrow from tonight. Hoping that sharing my life will help someone with their walk because there are so many distractions, I can't begin to tell you how many times I've wondered what on earth I was doing because of this or that. Why do I think I am "good enough" to entertain a shoe? Well, I am not and once I remove myself from this situation I see just that. It's not about me at all. A very special thanks to my neighbor Pat, who is like Jana's adopted grandmom, who sat and listened to me sing for the last half hour.
Time to pack it all up and hit the turnpike with my amazing family.
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
What If?
What If?
Out of retirement. Playing Saturday in Staten Island and decided to through in another song I haven't sung in a very long time. I think it speaks plenty to my heart and mind at this point, see previous blogs.
As a Worship leader we strive so hard to be perfect, all the time, in our life, in our faith. We try to deny that we ever have moments of wondering where God is in our life, of wondering if He truly loves us as much as we read he does, of wondering if maybe just maybe He is just too busy to answer our prayers. I mean there are wars and more important things going on out there. Tough, very tough questions that I think every believer goes through. The fact remains, we are human like every one.
The question then becomes.....am I going to lead regardless of how my emotions are running. We shrink away and leave the ministry given to us because we feel we can't do it, WE, not through faith, in our own strength, which we cannot. I have been out of ministry for a very very long time because I am struggling with my own personal cross of infertility. Again. So much fun the second time. Harder when you have a 10 year old who desperately wants a sibling and not to be alone herself. Very tough indeed.
I decided to add a few songs that are speaking to me at the moment (hoping I can pull these off by Saturday no less).
What If, Nichole Nordeman.......what if there's more? What if there's hope you never dreamed of hoping for? I've been running and looking for something to take away the pain I've been feeling. Now, it's time to stop running and to get back to doing what I am meant to be doing. Entertaining, ministering, reaching out to others.
Who You Are.....also Nichole Nordeman....I know I can't explain you. That is so so very true.
To Know You.....I think no matter how long we walk the walk, or fall off the walk, whatever the case, we are always trying to know God more.
I'm very excited for this be in New York again Saturday. In fact, I am hoping to get out to play more than I've been. I even started a facebook age for my music http://www.facebook.com/JacquiZollnerGodProject
God Project was the name of my bad before I had my daughter, Jacqui Zollner and the God Project.
Out of retirement. Playing Saturday in Staten Island and decided to through in another song I haven't sung in a very long time. I think it speaks plenty to my heart and mind at this point, see previous blogs.
As a Worship leader we strive so hard to be perfect, all the time, in our life, in our faith. We try to deny that we ever have moments of wondering where God is in our life, of wondering if He truly loves us as much as we read he does, of wondering if maybe just maybe He is just too busy to answer our prayers. I mean there are wars and more important things going on out there. Tough, very tough questions that I think every believer goes through. The fact remains, we are human like every one.
The question then becomes.....am I going to lead regardless of how my emotions are running. We shrink away and leave the ministry given to us because we feel we can't do it, WE, not through faith, in our own strength, which we cannot. I have been out of ministry for a very very long time because I am struggling with my own personal cross of infertility. Again. So much fun the second time. Harder when you have a 10 year old who desperately wants a sibling and not to be alone herself. Very tough indeed.
I decided to add a few songs that are speaking to me at the moment (hoping I can pull these off by Saturday no less).
What If, Nichole Nordeman.......what if there's more? What if there's hope you never dreamed of hoping for? I've been running and looking for something to take away the pain I've been feeling. Now, it's time to stop running and to get back to doing what I am meant to be doing. Entertaining, ministering, reaching out to others.
Who You Are.....also Nichole Nordeman....I know I can't explain you. That is so so very true.
To Know You.....I think no matter how long we walk the walk, or fall off the walk, whatever the case, we are always trying to know God more.
I'm very excited for this be in New York again Saturday. In fact, I am hoping to get out to play more than I've been. I even started a facebook age for my music http://www.facebook.com/JacquiZollnerGodProject
God Project was the name of my bad before I had my daughter, Jacqui Zollner and the God Project.
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