Well, if I can survive day 1 with a tree falling on my house I think I am doing pretty good. That was a hard day though, I really wanted to go by a pack and that would have been the perfect excuse really......but I didn't.
Day 2 was just as stressful and since I'm used to smoking my anxiety away I still hadn't calmed down too much.
Day 3 Went ok. No major stuff, finally, just the normal morning I want to smoke issues. That's how I woke up and you know, my daughter gets her "sleep is the enemy" attitude from me.
So here I am at Day 4. According to QuitNet, I've not smoke 41 cigarettes, saved $12.60, and saved 7 hours of life. Not exactly big numbers there but I do like reading the emails!
This is the first time I've actually made an effort to quit and I knew I was kinda serious when I told everyone! I mean everyone. I wanted to be held accountable. Hard to have that when you keep it a secret, but, most people didn't know I smoked anyway. I was a total closet smoker. I couldn't smoke at co-op, I hid it at church, I got very used to playing the role of a non-smoker.
By biggest issues of course is in the morning when I am very tired. That is how I woke up most mornings. Make coffee, run outside. Now, I make coffee and sit at my laptop. It's going ok. The Chantix is awesome. I was sensitive to the smell and taste before I had to give up completely. Funny thing, at the studio a girl came in and as I was helping with her bun I could smell the smoke on her from her dad. WOW. Hope Jana never smelled like smoke from me.
I am used to not smoking and driving since I have a child and I don't want to smoke around her. It is hard running errands because I would always blaze up once I stepped out of the car. Jana is so used to that I find myself waiting for her now, but, she waited for me long enough.
So.............the day goes on.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Fear is unbelief
One of the things I really want to discipline myself with this year is reading my Bible 1st thing in the morning, before the rest of the clutter gets in to distract me (Jana needs food, dog needs to go potty, etc). Today I read something that had a "hmm" factor to it.
I know we Christians have all heard of FROG, Fully Rely on God or FEAR, False Evidence Appearing Real, and all the other sayings that challenge us on a daily basis. Today this saying really struck me, though it seems I've read it before as there were notes on the side in my handwriting......
Fear is unbelief and unbelief makes you fear........
Fear has been a big issue for me since I had my car accident in 1996. I remember in those months I hated to leave the house. When 9-11 hit I was afraid to be anywhere! I was afraid to drive, I was afraid to be a passenger, I was afraid of so many things. Those fears have just changed to other issues in my life.
If I believe in God's goodness and his provision of taking care of His children then what should I fear?
If I believe that we are all pre-destined and life doesn't just happen by chance then isn't God already taking care of what I am fearing?
I am a control freak. No doubt I have issues in this department. So my challenge is not to stay where I don't want to be, to truly let go and let God take care of things. Even the uncertain things that are out of my control.
I know we Christians have all heard of FROG, Fully Rely on God or FEAR, False Evidence Appearing Real, and all the other sayings that challenge us on a daily basis. Today this saying really struck me, though it seems I've read it before as there were notes on the side in my handwriting......
Fear is unbelief and unbelief makes you fear........
Fear has been a big issue for me since I had my car accident in 1996. I remember in those months I hated to leave the house. When 9-11 hit I was afraid to be anywhere! I was afraid to drive, I was afraid to be a passenger, I was afraid of so many things. Those fears have just changed to other issues in my life.
If I believe in God's goodness and his provision of taking care of His children then what should I fear?
If I believe that we are all pre-destined and life doesn't just happen by chance then isn't God already taking care of what I am fearing?
I am a control freak. No doubt I have issues in this department. So my challenge is not to stay where I don't want to be, to truly let go and let God take care of things. Even the uncertain things that are out of my control.
Monday, January 4, 2010
Chunky Potato Soup
I figured it was easier this way than to try to squeeze a post.
3 cups diced potatoes
1/4 cup chopped onions
throw in broccoli cuts and corn
2 cups milk
3 cups water
3 tbsp butter
1 tbsp fresh parsley (I never have it so I use dried)
1/3 cup parmesan cheese
2 tbsp all purpose flour
1 tsp salt
1 tsp pepper
1 tsp Mrs. Dash original ( I use whatever I have)
2 cubes vegetable bouillon
2tsp Italian seasoning
Bring water to boil, add fresh herbs and vegetables. Let boil for 5 mins. Add milk and butter, boil 3 mins more. Add spices and seasonings then add flour and cheese.
Stir well so the flour and cheese do not clunk (good luck with that one, mine always do).
Serve when vegetables are tender and flavors are well blended.
It is really good. My friend Larisha made it for us when Jana was very sick and I asked for the recipe.
3 cups diced potatoes
1/4 cup chopped onions
throw in broccoli cuts and corn
2 cups milk
3 cups water
3 tbsp butter
1 tbsp fresh parsley (I never have it so I use dried)
1/3 cup parmesan cheese
2 tbsp all purpose flour
1 tsp salt
1 tsp pepper
1 tsp Mrs. Dash original ( I use whatever I have)
2 cubes vegetable bouillon
2tsp Italian seasoning
Bring water to boil, add fresh herbs and vegetables. Let boil for 5 mins. Add milk and butter, boil 3 mins more. Add spices and seasonings then add flour and cheese.
Stir well so the flour and cheese do not clunk (good luck with that one, mine always do).
Serve when vegetables are tender and flavors are well blended.
It is really good. My friend Larisha made it for us when Jana was very sick and I asked for the recipe.
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