What If?

What If?

Out of retirement. Playing Saturday in Staten Island and decided to through in another song I haven't sung in a very long time. I think it speaks plenty to my heart and mind at this point, see previous blogs.

As a Worship leader we strive so hard to be perfect, all the time, in our life, in our faith. We try to deny that we ever have moments of wondering where God is in our life, of wondering if He truly loves us as much as we read he does, of wondering if maybe just maybe He is just too busy to answer our prayers. I mean there are wars and more important things going on out there. Tough, very tough questions that I think every believer goes through. The fact remains, we are human like every one.

The question then becomes.....am I going to lead regardless of how my emotions are running. We shrink away and leave the ministry given to us because we feel we can't do it, WE, not through faith, in our own strength, which we cannot. I have been out of ministry for a very very long time because I am struggling with my own personal cross of infertility. Again. So much fun the second time. Harder when you have a 10 year old who desperately wants a sibling and not to be alone herself. Very tough indeed.

I decided to add a few songs that are speaking to me at the moment (hoping I can pull these off by Saturday no less).

What If, Nichole Nordeman.......what if there's more? What if there's hope you never dreamed of hoping for? I've been running and looking for something to take away the pain I've been feeling. Now, it's time to stop running and to get back to doing what I am meant to be doing. Entertaining, ministering, reaching out to others.

Who You Are.....also Nichole Nordeman....I know I can't explain you. That is so so very true.

To Know You.....I think no matter how long we walk the walk, or fall off the walk, whatever the case, we are always trying to know God more.

I'm very excited for this be in New York again Saturday. In fact, I am hoping to get out to play more than I've been. I even started a facebook age for my music http://www.facebook.com/JacquiZollnerGodProject

God Project was the name of my bad before I had my daughter, Jacqui Zollner and the God Project.